as we go on, we remember...

As graduation approaches, I find myself in an emotional state....

that I never thought I'd be in.
I don't wanna go.
I actually want High School to go on forever.
I'm not ready for the real world.
The real world is not ready for me.

Yesterday, as I was sprawled on the ground with my old yearbooks, I realized I was not just looking at the past. I was trying to look for my future.

It wasn't there.

I'm not sure about anything. I feel scared, sad, excited, accomplished, unaccomplished.

I may even end up just staying in high school. I really don't feel ready.
Maybe my feelings will change in a month.
Idk.